The Twix Bowl of DEATH

This morning I was feeling good. Packed a healthy lunch and was ready to have a great day! Then at approximately 8:47 Jay walked into the office. He stopped at my desk and then started fishing around in his bag... to then reveal a bag of mini twix. He opened the bag, took one, and offered the bag to me. I reached in, took one and said thanks!!! He then said, no no... keep the bag up here! For people who come in and whatever. ARGH!!! So I now have a bowl of mini twix sitting on my desk.

It is HORRIBLE. I ate 5. Granted they are bitsize... but I still ate 5. I ate 5 by like 9:30am. But I'm not going to eat anymore. I do not need them. And I will display some self control.

And now that I made my confession and got my goals out in the open... I'm ready to have a good day (all twix previously consumed aside).

I decided against going out to lunch with people as a) I dont have any money and b) they were going to Bob Evans. I have spaghetti squash with yummy meat sauce for lunch. Also some soup if I'm still hungry.

I am also going to the gym after work today. I'm hoping to just take this weekend to refocus and get back in the game. Granted I'm also going to be baking some cookies... but if I can mentally prepare before hand I'm generally ok. It's those out of no where surprises that get me (like an early morning bag of twix thrown in my face).

And thank you all SOOO much for your super sweet coments yesterday. I really just needed some affirmation that yes, this is hard... but that doesnt mean I cant do it. You're all the BEST!

Christmas Cookies - Day 8 of 32

I started the first of many Christmas Cookies last night. Made a batch of peanut butter blossoms and then snickerdoodles. I ate a few too many last night (like 4) and then had 2 this morning at work (because of course I brought some to work to get them out of the house heehee). But so far today I'm still on track!

I was looking through pictures today from earlier this year when I was about 10 pounds lighter. I'd really like to get back to that happy place. And pictures can be a really good motivator. So I think that was good.

Not much else going on. Got my first batch of Christmas cards out. Have about 30 left. It's not too late to get on the list if youd like. Just email me your address: jeannie.waters@hotmail.com.

Tonights plan is to go home, change, straighten up a bit, take puppy for a walk, pick Ar up at work at 7, go to the gym, then come home and have a super late dinner (burgers on the george forman and maybe a salad or something).

That's all for now!

Stinkin Cramps - Day 7 of 32

This weekend wasnt horrible, but it wasnt great either. I just find myself to not be snacking at all... which is so unlike me. Yesterday I had pancakes for breakfast (and yes I had them for dinner on Sat as well...) around 10, then had taco bell (dont even get me started, it was GROSS!! I was so pissed I wasted calories on it) at like 5:30, and then had ice cream from marble slab at 7. And that was all I ate all day. Granted NONE of it was healthy, but I didnt have bites of anything, or snacks at all. So I guess that was good.

And apparently I've been PMSing as I got my period yesterday. I didn thave my normal symptoms of horribly choc and greasy food cravings or being easily annoyed. But not to worry, the cramps are in full force today!!

I went to the gym yesterday and will go today depending on the cramp situation.

I started my first knifty knitter project last night. A hat. I think it will come out pretty good! I'm hoping to figure out how to make a matching scarf next. I'm thinking lots of my friends will be getting hat and scarf sets! haha.

Here's todays menu:

Bfast:
dry fake honey nut cheerios (2)

Lunch:
salad (1)
soup (1)
virgin bloody mary HAHA (1) - i bought low sodium v-8 and am OBSESSED!!! A lil hot sauce, pepper and worchester sauce.... MMMMMM
1/2 apple (1)

Snack:
pretzels (2)
choc chip cakies (2)

No idea whats for dinner... maybe spaghetti squash or something. I also think I may be making my first batch of christmas cookies tonight. I bought sugar cookie mix, cookie cutters, a rolling pin and stuff to decorate the cookies with last night. YAY!

I HAVE to do This (day 4 of 32)

I dont know what happened yesterday, but I sort of had a wake-up call. Maybe it was stepping on the scale at the gym, and maybe it was just getting back into my routine. But I realized that I need to stop kidding myself. And I need to stop saying "OK, I'll get back on track for REAL tomorrow" because ya know what? TODAY is the day to start.

And that's just what I'm going to do. I woke up this morning with a clean slate, and I made a promise to myself that I'd stay on track. So here I go!

I finally went to the gym last night! I attempted to do day one of the couch 2 5k program, but ater the second set of jogging I got a horrible cramp in my left side, like right about my hip bone. I tried to walk it off, but the second I tried to start jogging again it came back with avengence!! So I went back to my old treadmill routine where I walk at a decent pace and every minute I up the incline .5 until I get to 14... then every minute I go down .5. Its a really good work out, but I was upset that I couldnt do the couch25k. I was told the reason I cramped up is because I wasn't breathing right and wasnt getting enough oxygen to my body. So maybe I'll try again on Sunday and concentrate on breathing.

I won't be able to get to the gym today or tomorrow as I'm babysitting after work tonight and I'm getting my hair cut and highlighted (at the Aveda Institue -- $12 haircuts and $25 highlights... its awesome!!!!) at 9am. And I'm just fooling myself if I think that I'm going to go to the gym AFTER someone blowdries and styles my hair. haha.

So I'll get back to the gym on Sunday. And until then I'm going to really focus on getting my eating under control.

Wish me luck!!

Shooting for a Perfect Day - Day 2 of 32

I was good yesterday... though I did have ice cream last night. Bryers light, but that doesnt make it ok. haha. Especially because I'm sure I had more than 1/2 cup! I also didnt make it to the gym... stinkin cold!

I woke up feeling like CRAP today. I feel a little better now, but I refuse to let illness stand in my way of eating healthy. If anything I should want to eat better now so my body gets the nutrients it needs!!

I dont know if I'll make it to the gym tonight. We'll see how I feel when I get home from work. If I have energy I'm actually hoping to clean. Between me and Ar both being sick the apartment is a DISASTER! So I'll shoot to clean before I go to the gym and if I STILL have engery then I'll hit up the gym. But I SWEAR I'm going to start the couch 2 5k one of these days! Even though I've been saying it now for 5 days! EEK!!!

Today I'm off to a good start so far:

Breakfast:
tea w/ honey (1)
h-nut cheerios w/milk (3)

Lunch:
soup (1)
1/2 sammy (6)
piece of bread (2)

Snacks:
2 choc chip cakeys (2)
yogurt (1)

Dinner:
meatloaf (4)
couscous (3)
asparagus (0)

And maybe a super light snack during the biggest loser!!! I love that show I cant WAIT!!!

Hope you're all having good days. I got a little present from my Secret Santa at work today (its a Staples Easy Button because I order all the office supplies -- too cute!!!). And that totally made my day :)

Back in the Game - Day 1 of 32

After a day on the couch, eating ice cream, tea and anything else that would sooth my throat I'm back in the game! I dont feel 100% but certainly better than yesterday. So it's time to step it up a bit!

Ar and I have set a friendly challenge to see who can lose the most weight between now and the wedding in San Diego (on Dec 30th). That gives me 32 days from today. I'm shooting for 10 lbs. This means no slip ups, no 'oh its the holidays' none of that. There is no reason to let all my hard work go to waste just because it's freakin Christmas time.

So I'm starting today.... on a mini 32 day challenge.

Here's my menu so far:

Breakfast:
hot tea with honey (mmm) - 1
Honey nut cheerios w/ milk - 3

Lunch:
salad - 1.5
pb&j - 3.5
bell pepper soup - 1
yogurt - 1

Snack:
2 chocolate chip cakeys - 2
pretzels - 2

Dinner:
5 oz burger - 4.5
light english muffin - 1
cheese - 2
baked 'fries' - 3
asparagus - 0

Also gonna hit up the gym after dinner. Start the couch to 5k! I'm excited to get that going. Though a little nervous as I am not a runner... at all. But I'll just take it slow and go at my own pace. If I need to do week one for 2 or 3 weeks then thats fine. As long as I'm giving it my all!

And I'm finally over my terrible soreness from Fridays workout. So hopefully I'll be able to get in some lifting time at the gym today too. If its not too crowded.

Whew... thats all for today! I've gotten a few address for Christmas cards which is so fun! If you havent sent your address along feel free: jeannie.waters@hotmail.com